Sudden stop

I've had to deal with stuff completely losing importance suddenly, and you probably have too. The simplest example is a blackout interrupting your work. You were really focused, probably multi-tasking, had a series of things you were prepared to do, or maybe you were in the middle of sending someone a message. Suddenly, the power goes out. You yell, you bang the desk, you feel really mortified for a few seconds... and then you relax. You sit in silent dark for a few seconds, your mind cooling down from the sensory overload. Nothing you can do now will solve anything, you can only wait.

Death... might be something like that. I often think of Selena's death, and the way my sister described the show. She was starting to become famous, had a lot of plans of things she wanted to do, places she was prepared to visit, and suddenly none of it mattered. That's why I often get a faint sense of anxiety when I'm in the middle of something; that's why I'm a little obssesed with completing things.

On a similar note, some of the times I've had to deal with this feeling were self-provoked. I was so obssesed with something that was hoarding all of my time and energy, that I had to force myself to stop.

Deleting those photos.
Uninstalling that one mobile game.
Stopping making updates to my game.
Getting banned from my online gallery.
Getting banned from my hosting.
Stopping making art.

I've stopped myself from so many things, that I'm starting to feel like I have nothing left.