Gratitude

I've had everything I ever wanted. I have everything I ever wanted.

Romantic relationships, intimacy, adventures, risks, toys. A profession that I like, a job that I enjoy, a house, a car, a family. Maybe I'm on the conformist side, but I can hardly think of something I want that I've never had.

I try to remember this whenever I feel that things are hard or not fair for me. We take everything for granted, but we need to start counting our blessings before we start complaining about our problems.

I have everything I ever wanted, I've done everything I ever wanted. If I were to die, I wouldn't be missing out on a lot. The list of things you can do in life is endless anyway. I can't expect to experience every experience, I need to settle for the things that I want the most, which I already have, and I'm thankful for. This always reminds me of the Skyrim skill tree, the way that I wanted to master every skill, which simply didn't make sense in a game, and it doesn't make sense in life either. This also reminds me of my perfectionism, my enjoyment for being a completionist. I won't 100% life, but I'm darned sure I've enjoyed it very much.